2004-08-12 - 3:26 p.m.
what is with this lethargy I'm feeling. The nausea since Monday afternoon seem to have subsided for now. It could be because of my empty stomach. But this lethargy and the reluctance to do anything is like a big glue that keeps me suspended in time and space. It resists everything that I step out to do and motivates me to become lazy and immobile. It's the anti-optimism agent that's woken up by my perpetual optimism.
It's surfacing signifies the beginning of another breakthrough in my chi kung practice. I believe the releasing of this "glue" will result of a even better state of overall well-being but for now I'm just typing with a thin hope with my eyes half closed. It is hard to be truly optimistic whilst trying to swim out of this energetic quicksand. But I know from past experience that with my chi kung practice, it will eventually be flushed out of my system.
