2004-08-20 - 5:37 p.m.
The end of my perpetual optimism came subtly and sneakly. Now I'm in another stage of cleansing. I somehow feel this is more emotional than physical. My body has been feeling very free lately both during chi kung practice and the rest of the day. In other words, I'm physically very relaxed. My spirit, however, is trapped and cannot see the freedom and joy. I expect this cycle to continue for at least another few years with the crests increasing in length and strength before I am consistently relatively free from worry, laziness, fear, depression and anger. This is truly a spiritual journal which requires perseverence.
